Thoughtful Thursday

Man, I'm glad it's Thursday so I could use that catchy title. There's joy in the little things, people. This morning I had every intention of sleeping in. Usually on a Thursday morning that is not an option. First of all, Tommi doesn't usually let me. Secondly, we have to get up to do school because I hate doing school late into the day. Today was different though. Do you remember that we were dog sitting Lucky, my parents dog? They were over in Germany visiting my brother and sis-in-law. For three weeks! (Good for them!) Anyway, Lucky got me up every morning, earlier than usual mind you. Then he would walk down the hallway in front of the kids doors and shake his head, which would in turn, rattle his collar. For some reason this is extremely loud in the wee hours of the morning. Tommi would inevitably hear it and wake up. And so my day would begin...sometimes before 7:00 even! Sheesh! Keep in mind that my average bedtime is midnight. Stop judging, it works for me okay? Well at least it does when Luckys not here.

Last night we had the pleasure of picking my parents up from the airport. Their flight was scheduled to come in at 10:45. I actually came in at 11:45. Long story short (if that's even possible for me to do), we didn't get home until about 1:15 this morning. The kids went straight to bed. I however have been reading in 1 Kings every night before I go to sleep. I've never read through the Old Testament and this stuff is fascinating to me. Right now I'm reading about Solomon. Anywho...I thought I'd just read a small section, but I just couldn't put it down. Finally I succumbed to sleep with joyous thoughts of getting up around noonish. Not really, but is 9:00 too much to ask for?

This morning I woke up to my sweet little boy hovering over me. It wasn't even 7:00 yet!!! Let me repeat: it was still in the 6:00 hour! I don't even get up that early on a normal day, let alone my sleep in day. I had it all perfectly planned out too. I think God does this to me on purpose sometimes, just to show me that I'm not in control.

Needless to say I woke up in a b-a-d mood. I attempted to regain a few precious more minutes of slumber by letting G jr go out and watch some PBS. Now don't get me wrong, I don't do that very often. And don't get me started about cartoons these days...the kids are only allowed to watch PBS. Of coarse they have no other options since we don't have satellite. Anyway, that didn't work since Jack woke up and needed to go out to go potty. Well, I think G jr was so amazed that I was letting him watch cartoons that he forgot to take care of his little puppy. So Jack kept coming in to me to take care of him. That didn't help my mood any.

Did I say I was going to make this story short? Ah-well. Maybe next time.

What my whole point is that I (obviously) was not in a good mood this morning. I wasn't very nice to G jr - which I need to go apologize for. But I'm making the CHOICE to be in a better mood, to be nice to my kids, and not take out my frustrations on them. This is not something that can be done alone. I had to get on my knees and come before the Lord, broken. He convicted me of my attitude (which all stems out of selfishness - I'm not getting what I want).

So today I'm choosing not to be selfish...Lord help me.